It's been a long time since i updated here.

I was in school and since the internet there had blocked every possible link i could know, here i am. I just feel bored. So, i felt like writing something.

I saw Chris's COMMENT!!! Thanks honey!

Schhool's boring as usual. But the different is, I actually finished all my homeworks. At least for now. Haha.

I checked my blood pressure last night. And it was so low that it's below average. I get dizzy every now and then. Tripped a few times in school. Nobody cares right?

Right now, I just feel like going home. Just want to go home.

School's finallyy overrrr!!! Dont know why but im sure everyone has this feeling before. When school was still on-going, we wanted it to end but now that it has finally come to an end, we kinda want it to last. Ridiculous, I KNOW!!

So, the form 5's are having their Graduation Day and truthful, they do look really dashing and all. Puts all the teachers into teary eyes to seem them one by one taking their certificate of graduation day and leaving the school. Afterall, most of the student had been with the teachers for years and year and it's like seeing ur own children grow up and ready to take off with their wings spread up high. So, i wish all form 5's here to have a wonderful journey in their tertiary educations and stepping into the adulthood, taking up more responsibilities with great success.

Later the day, we had the talent-time 2008. EVERYONE WAS FABULOUS!! I loved all the performances except a few under certain reasons that shall not be stated. The Silver Flare was great!! Mak Wen's dancing was so great! Smoking hot!. And i shall not forget, Belly Dancing by my class. They were the BOMBSHELL! Put the whole crowd on party mode. Mrs Olive ended the day by cracking up some sexy moves with the other teachers and Mr YU!! He looks so funny! <3 in a cute way of coz.

Mom's gone to Penang for a couple of days. So it's my turn to do the grocery-shopping. Gram's coming over tomorrow to host the dinner at home. Have the rest of the week spent in school for the PHANTOM OF THE OPERA! YESH!! it's come back to haunt us once again! Parents day next week

Have lots to do.

Going down to Melaka for wedding dinners.
Hang out with Jules and the rest of the gang.
Movies with Stephie and Jules.
PeiYINg and VICKy Outing
Daniel and IVin and MUAH going out! ( Maybe) :(
Pool party at Alex's
Victor COMING BACK!!
Joshie COMING BACK!!
CHristmas party ( maybe) :(

that also includes, movies, sleepovers, more and more tuitions to catch up! Oh yeah before i forget, during december, if mom and dad do let me, i might be going over to Singapore to record a song with a few of the celebs there for the promo CD! Can't wait. ANd plus, MALAYSIAN ONE IN A MILLION AUDITION, Nov 24th!!

Love,
Mandy

If you are looking for love, would you recognize it if you found it?
Can you tell the difference between love and infatuation?
Between love and attraction?
Between love and sexual desire?
Between love and friendship?
Between sex and intimacy?
Between a good relationship and one that is only pleasurable

We always try to find love. But do we really know what to find? Do we really know what love truly is? Some will say love is the closest thing we have to magic. Some will say love is blind. But others would say, love is the feeling of joy and pain at the same time. So, what is LOVE ??

To be honest, I don't know either. I havent really quite understand what love is all about.If i did, i wouldnt be stuck here right now. But one thing i know for sure that love can do is that, it has the power to lift our spirits and sends us into despair. Long lasting love never happens nowadays. We always here how fairy tale stories ends with a ' happily ever after ' but when it comes to reality, it's not so ' happily ever after ' Im begining to even wonder if love really existed before.

There are a few types of love in this world that we know so far. Love for oneself. Love for family. Love in friendship. Love in boygirl relationship. All four types of love is really not an easy thing to control.. Some loses their way in it. Some can. Some dont. It's just so unpredictable. It's all so complicated but yet brief. Simple yet deep. Clear but yet sometimes confusing.

Love for oneself.

They say that before you could ever love someone, you should learn how to first love yourself. The meaning of loving urself doesnt mean you have crazy affection and that kinda love. Loving urself means to be able to take care of yourself. Think for yourself. Respect yourself. Sometimes to even spoil urself alittle bit. Nowadays, we hear teenagers dying or commiting suicide out of love. People, it's not worth dying for. No one is ever worth your life other than yourself. There's no point in giving up your life for someone who broke your heart. Spoil yourself abit. Reward yourself with chocolates or presents like teddy bears or whatever you favourite most once in a while. Never let yourself be in despair and a non-happy state. Smile. Creates more endorphines that can avoid sickness. It benefits you too. Never ever hurt yourself emotionally and physically. Learn to love ur inner self. Accept yourself for who you truly are before someone else can do so.

Love for family

Im sure everyone loves their family right. I mean, despite the fights and arguments over and over again, you'll still make up with each other and forgive. Ur family is the closest thing you have in the whole world. They are the people who provided ur first glimpse of love, care and happiness. Never take it for granted. Whether you are given a happy family or maybe a not so good one, still, make the best out of it. Nothing is impossible. You can always makes things work if you just put in a little effort. Family are those who wouldnt trade you for anything in the world even if it was the world.

Love for Friends.

Friends. Good friends. Best friends. Close friends. Childhood friends. All types of friends. Friends are those who never try to change you for who you are. If they do, they arent your real friends. Friends comes and go but true friends stays forever. How often would you find a true friend out of all those friendship you've made. Probably one or maybe two. So, appreciate every friendship you have and never take a friend for granted. True friends are also those who would always be there through thick and thin. They never leave you behind and let you take all the blame. You can phone them at 5 in the morning and they'll still attend to you even though they are sick. That's what friends are. Also, friends do not try to break each other. They do not go critize and steal something from each other.

Love for a Boy or a Girl

Ahh..i think everyone should know that. Like i said, love has the power to lift our spirit but at the same time sends us into despair. It has a huge impact on us, that four words. I dont know what to really say and interpret because im also a failure in this. Love is just so unbearable. When it happens, it just does. You'll never be able to stop it. Everything can seem to be so perfect but before you know it, it's so out of place and you just dont know what to do. When you love someone, you do not change someone but love them for who they are. But i think when you do love someone, you never put urself out there all the way because you'll end up hurt. Never be too attached unless you know it's really worth it.

One more thing.. the one thing that i think most people have problems with is unrequited love. The one sided relationship. It's really painful. To love someone but you cant tell them because you're afraid that things will turn out wrong. The feeling of knowing that someone is always there but they dont know that you care for them that much. It's just unbearable. It's like so close yet so far. Im kinda going through that stage now. And i know some of my friends are too. Just wanna say, dont be too hard on yourself. Don't let it affect you. I mean afterall, loving someone doesnt mean you have to be with them side by side forever. Just to watch them from afar will be enough. Just enough.

GOod luck in Our Chemistry Paper. May the gods shower us with blessings and luck be on ur side.

Love,
Mandy

I am tired  exhausted  buuuuut happy 

Exams have started and eveyday is passing by so quickly so it's coming to an end. Finally, year end holidays are about to come. Victor's coming back in 35 days. I get my Dream CHOCOLATE!! Never tries to stop me from eating chocolate and telling me that im fat, he's a good friend and people im NOT LIVING IN DENIAL! i know i am fat. I'll lose weight this coming holiday. I promise. But just dont break me down like that. Love me for who i am :P

Hahahahah sryyy got carried away..

So hopefully i get to watch High School Musical 3 today. If possible, i hope to go with my friends.

I miss Jules soo much! I miss Joshie too.. =(

Please please please please just lemmme get through time quickly as possible so the holidays can come and i can hang out with buddies and put exams aside!

Was bored so i watched Mamma Mia again last night and when Meryl Steep was singing that song by Abba " The Winner Takes It All " I was trying so hard not to relate to it but in the end, i did.

So yuppie today's gona be the last day of holiday and then im gona have to suffer for bout another two weeks. Oh well, no biggie. Im loving my life more and more each day because they finally mean something. There's meaning to it now. I have my unconditional love and support from my family, my 24/7 friends who cares about me.

Spending time with Dad today.

I Love Chris! Ur the rock! Thanks!

Cant wait for the Jolly Ranchers!

it's been a while since i updated my blog.

It's almost near to deepavalli celebration so i wish all my indian friends a " Happy Deepavalli Day "

Lately been feeling abit down. Cause of it? I dont know why to be honest. Maybe it's just a phase again. I dont know. But the pain's really deep. Somehow i can feel the pain in the heart. The feeling of my heart being stung a thousand times, being stabbed. That kinda feeling. Have i told anyone bout it? Not really.. I dont really show my emotions too much anymore nowadays. I maybe loud at times but my true emotions are burried deep down inside. I guess it's cause i dont know who i can truly confide my feelings to and also what's the point of it, no one can help me and some might even say im a drama queen or an attention seeker. Dont want to be someone like that.

Jules and I are close but at the same time no more. I love her very much as a person and i know she doesnt say it all the time but she does the same too. Whatever that's bothering her, i can't really help her through it. I dont know how it feels. But the least that i can do, is try to be there for her as much as i can. Im sorry if lately babe, i dont show you that i care but deep down i do. Like i said, one of us has to be strong for the other. You've done enough for me for so long..it's my time now. You need me more than i do now. I have to solve my problems first before i can be there for ya. Im thankful that Dan is around. Easing my burden alittle =)

I guess after whatever thats happen. I have to thank him alot. Teaching me another lesson that is part of my life. If it wasnt for him, i wouldnt know what caring and loving someone is but at the same time, he taught me to stand up again on both feet if fall. Im learning life as it is throughout this. I need time to take it. Who knows, a month? three months? a year ? I dont know but i know i'll be better than before. I hope you're happy in ur coming journey in life. May the gods pray of good things for in store for you and the sadness and sorrow will find it's way back to their somewhere but never near you. =]

LOL i know it's long people but bear with me for another short while, im LONG WINDED

Another thing i want to say is I love my mom and dad very much. Dad has been very understanding lately, giving me the space a daughter needs when the time comes. I took up the courage to tell my Dad bout whatever happen before. He knew something was bothering me. He didnt scold me after that. He didnt lectured me nor anything this time. The only thing he said to me was " Hang in there, just hope for the better to come. If you need us, we'll be there for you. Take it as lesson, a mistake that you'll never do again. " I was actually very shocked when he said this because HE NEVER DID BEFORE!! HAHAHAHAHAHA

Oh yeah, i might be leaving for a vacation at the end of the year. Maybe 3 weeks or a month. Daddy thinks is best i take a vacation for a while. To go take some fresh air. He needs it as well. Mom too. Also, it's because we havent been on a family vaca for a long time. The last time was Paris and London which was last year.

Exams are around the corner and everybody in class are going hairwired with all the tips the teacher gave. Actually, it makes not much of a difff with the tips they give because it's everything that we have to read and revise through anyway. I hope my hardwork pays off at the end of the exam. I dont want to have to go boarding school. Sigh. I miss you guys too much!

...My god it's an hour gone already. Gona go get ready for tuition and then cousin brother's gona come pick me up for yam cha again! He knows how to drive already. That's a good thing. FOR ME! WAKAKAKAKA

Before i leave, i wanna shout out to a few people saying this

Ivin, WeiShin, Dan, Vicky, Pei Ying, and grandma ( how can i forget ) .... .... ...  

I LOVE YOU GUYS ALOT!!! THANKS!!!